Hey guys. The name's Josh (as most of you probably know, I sincerely hope you know, otherwise you shouldn't be reading this >.>), and this is my about me, once again, as you should already know. If you DIDN'T know that this was my About Me, then perhaps you need to get your eyes checked out. What? You have good vision? Well...Then you're just retarded =D (refer to the section which refers to the fact that I use sarcasm a lot, I wasn't trying to hurt your feelings, don't feel bad). Ok this is getting out of hand, I'm going COMPLETELY off-topic, perhaps I should just get back to the point at hand. Yes, let's do that.
I don't really see my life as all that exciting, I'm a gamer 100% and my current drug (and anti "real" drug) is Guitar Hero. Those that have seen me play know I'm good, and yes I probably play it a little too much. But hey it's me, it's what I do, call me lame and say I don't have a life, I couldn't care less. At the end of the day I'm still better than you at the game you try to play (Don't lie, most of you haters have played guitar hero before and just suck, your insults don't hurt me =D). And no I'm not the type that thinks he's better than everyone else. I'm WELL aware that there are people out there in the world that would dominate me on Guitar Hero. I just also happen to know that I'm in about the top 2,000 players in the WORLD. So I think that entitles me to at least SOME bragging rights, doesn't it? If not, then I'll stop now, I'll be completely humble and think that I'm the worst Guitar Hero player ever. I have had people ask me a lot "Josh, which game do you like better: Guitar Hero or Rock Band?". Well that is a bit of a tough question, but here's my best shot at answering. Guitar hero is the game for single players, PERIOD. Yes, it does have versus modes and Co-Op, but for the main part, it's the way you get better by yourself, and most of the time it's more challenging than Rock Band. So all in all, it's more of a challenge game. Now Rock Band is your fun, party game. Rock Band is almost not fun unless you have another person with you to get that "Big Band" experience. Now that's not always the case, here recently they have been releasing quite difficult downloadable songs, that give you that same feeling as Guitar Hero gives. 90% of the time, I go on Rock Band with friends and play as a band, for fun. Almost ALL the time, I play Guitar Hero to better myself, and accomplish new tasks. I have to really say, I'm starting to become REALLY impressed by Rock Band. I hardly pick up Guitar Hero 3 or Guitar Hero: World Tour anymore, even after having World Tour for such a small period of time. Rock Band is finally releasing some really hard stuff, and it's pleasing the shredder in me lol. But thankfully it's nothing to the point of Jordan or Through the Fire and Flames where it's more of an annoyance to play. I still have fun playing Caprici Di Diablo on Rock Band 2 (YouTube it, that song is insane. Yes I've 5 starred it and I'm working on Gold Stars, idc, I'm good, w/e =P). Ok, so now maybe you're wondering "Josh, you rock at guitar on Guitar Hero and Rock Band, but do you play the other instruments?" What a fabulous question =P Yes I do. Of course the bass is just like the guitar (There are open notes in GH:WT but they aren't prevalent enough in a lot of the songs to be difficult), I sing most stuff on like Hard, and very few on Expert. And when it comes to the drums I play most everything on Expert. The only problem I seem to have on drums is getting rolls down. I don't know why but fast rolls are hard for me. If you're a drummer and would like to explain to to do them properly, drop me a message =)
Throughout my life I've moved from place to place, but I spent most of my life in LaBelle. I was born in Fort Lauderdale, but wasn't there very long, and then went to North Carolina. And again, I wasn't there very long either. I came back to Florida, and lived in LaBelle. Then I lived in Illinois for about 8 months I believe. Then came back to LaBelle again. I moved from place to place a few times in LaBelle, and then once my great-grandmother passed away (Where I lived majority of the time), we got the house we have now in Venus. Most everyone knows I don't like it too much here. But it does have it's redeeming qualities. I love the quiet you can have out here, with people living so far apart, and having so few people. And I LOVE the midnight sky here. You haven't seen so many stars until you've come to where I am. The only thing holding me back from leaving this place and never looking back is my family. My mom, sister, step-dad, and grandparents all live here, and it's going to be hard to let them go once college starts. I'm really afraid of change and the future, since it's so unknown from time to time. But I know you have to go through new things in order to change the future. If I did everything the same as I have been, I won't go anywhere. It's going to be even harder to leave my friends once I move away too. My friends are my life, they are what keep me going. If I didn't have them, I don't know how I would get along. It's nice to have a break from the insanity sometimes =P.
People often wonder if I'm religious, and I politely tell them "I'm agnostic". Now, don't go pointing your fingers and start calling me a sinful atheist that is going to hell. I think religion has put too much emphasis on what you believe, instead of how you live your life. I realize you have to believe in God in order to get into heaven, and all of that stuff. I gave Christianity my run-through, and really tried to believe, and to know this was all real. But I just can't follow blindly, it won't happen. I feel that if there were a God, he should at least give a hint that he's real. If he wants such a commitment out of me, he can do just a small bit. And even if I don't believe, I think that people should still judge on who you are. I don't believe in God, but I definitely don't think there couldn't BE one. I believe in all things paranormal and supernatural, and a divine entity that rules and governs our existence, while a bit of a stretch possibly, is still a possibility. And even though I don't believe, it hasn't made me any less of a moral individual. I still live by certain behavioral standards, and don't live life in a way that you would call "Sinful". I follow all of the rules, and act like a gentleman to everyone. Everyone knows I'm a nice guy, and I go out of my way to help others. And if that doesn't enable me to be in heaven, then God isn't quite a fair individual, and I wouldn't want to worship him anyways. "Take everything I say as truth without a single bit of evidence" is basically how it would work. And honestly, it doesn't. You wouldn't believe some random guy saying "I can fly, but I can't show you, you just have to believe me". Why is religion so different? Co-Exist is a term I REALLY like. I don't judge Christians/Buddhists/Muslims/etc for their beliefs, I respect them, and wish them well. Because, in the end, it's all about raising morality. If believing in God is what it takes for you to straighten out your life and be a good person, AWESOME! I couldn't be more pleased. And if God existed, I think he would agree with that. He wouldn't care how you got to it, as long as you got to a state of morality. Just my two cents on that issue.
But anyways, I am on the internet a lot, it's my connection to all the awesome friends I have (Yeah they are THAT awesome, be jealous lol. No, NO I'm serious, these people are freakin' awesome, you obviously just don't know them. If you did, you would realize what I'm talking about.). If I'm not on Myspace I'm usually on Score Hero, which is an online scoreboard I use to keep track of how I'm ranked on Guitar Hero throughout the world. Check it out sometime,
www.scorehero.com. I also play the online RPG game Runescape. I'm level 123 (yeah I know, JEEZ what a freakin' no life huh?), although I haven't been playing that much lately. The game is getting a bit repetitive once you hit a high enough level. I don't know if I'll ever COMPLETELY quit the game, but I am on a break from it for a while. You are more than welcome to add me on Runescape, my username is Lost_Hero498, you'll have to message me on here and tell me yours so that I can add you as well (I keep my private chat set to friends only, that way I don't get added by random people, I can only fit so many on the list). I'd be happy to help you along with anything I can, from quests to just general money making advice, whatever.
Anways... I also host a forum with my friend Corwin, which is themed around video games, mainly just RPG's but there are sections for non-RPG games also. We are trying to expand our amount of members and have a huge internet community. There are sections to talk about anything, not necessarily about video games, it's just a place to hang out and talk. So you if you or your friends wanna check it out sometime (and why wouldn't you? We put some hard work into the site, it's pretty neat) check out:
rpgnation.18.forumer.com if you don't join at least tell someone you know that will. It only takes a few minutes and it helps us achieve our goal. The more people that know the more that it will grow, and we can't get more people without support =D. But anyways, moving on.
I know how to solve a Rubik's Cube (Yeah, I'm totally serious. That little six sided box that you've never been able to solve, that's gathering dust in your closet from frustration...I can fix it, even when mixed up). I can solve any type also, the regular one I can solve in about 45 seconds (on average, my record time for 1 solve is in 38 seconds. Again, I'm not lying, mix up the cube all you want, you can even sit there for like 10 minutes and mix it up, you won't stump me, I have it down. Yeah, be impressed XD) I can also solve the 4x4x4 and the 5x5x5. I consider the 4x4x4 the hardest of them all. Because the 5x5x5 is the same general concept of the 3x3x3, with just 2 more. The 4x4x4 doesn't have a set middle piece, so you have to work with that. There is also the issue known as parity. And those require MASSIVE algorithms (turns of the cube) to fix. The largest parity case requires a 21 move algorithm, that's a bitch to memorize. It doesn't take too much to solve, you just have to have a good amount of memory to your brain, that's all. Now, teaching YOURSELF? That's really hard, I'm not sure HOW the people that originally learned to solve it did it lol. I have started making my own method for solving but I've still got the bottom to solve, and that's incredibly difficult seeing as though anything I screw up I have to fix again. That's the part that is stumping me. And for all of you people out there that are "OMG Josh!!! Teach meh to solve ze rubik's cube!!!!" Fine, I will. I'm working on a guide to teach anyone how to solve, give me some time and I will let you guys have the guide. I'll update this and post a bulletin once it's finished. I would teach you just randomly one day if I could, but it isn't really something you can just learn in a single sitting. It took me about 2 weeks to FULLY learn it, memory and all. You don't just KNOW it magically, it takes lots of repetition and memorization. One day I do hope to learn how to solve it using the speed method (which really shouldn't be too hard, I really need to just get off of my ass and learn it), and maybe one day break the world record (it seems like a stretch, but if I can do it the regular way in 38 seconds, maybe I can get less than 8 using the speed method.) I also want to learn to do it blindfolded, but that's incredibly hard and requires TONS of memorization. There must be some type of special way I'm missing but from what I can tell, the blindfolded method requires you to solve it while remembering EXACTLY where EVERY piece is going to go after you do your movements on the cube. Until I gain a better understanding of it I don't think that will happen anytime soon. But who knows? Maybe one day when I have TONS of spare time lol. But anyways...
The Simpsons is like the best show to exist in my opinion. The shows been on the air for countless years, they pulled off a good show (more on The Simpsons can be found on my Television section of my profile).
Myspace really isn't all that important to me, all the people I REALLY REALLY want/need to talk to are IM or I can call them. This is just another way I use to start up conversations with people. The few times there are good bulletins posted, you can get some decent conversations started on the subject. I'm not going to add random people for more views, I'm the furthest thing from a "myspace whore". Not to be mean, but I don't like meeting too many people I can't see in real life, while I DO have friends over the net, it doesn't compare really to the ones I know in real life. But there are exceptions to that, I have a few REALLY good friends that I've NEVER met in real life. I think it really comes down to how good of friends THEY want to be. I want to be the best friend I can possibly be, so I mean if you wanna be close too, then it's MORE than possible for me to spark a close friendship over vast distances. So, all you random people, don't bother trying to add me, you'll get the deny almost immediately (or at least as fast as I can on dialup lol). Unless you just give a really good reason for me to add you, I get tired of those spam adds on Myspace, if you really wanna try to make a friend over the net, give a brief message in addition to your friend invite, so I can tell you'd put at least SOME commitment into a friendship. Just sending the invite makes me think you are one of those myspace bots that sends spam invites to EVERYONE. I won't check the profile to be sure, just add a message, like typing is that hard. Look at how much I've typed HERE.
When it comes to being social, I'm not really all that big on it. I hate speaking in public, and I don't like being the center of attention. I don't like talking on the phone, I'm MUCH more into talking over the computer using IM's. The reason? I can multi-task SO much more when using instant messaging. I can talk with others, visit websites, play Guitar Hero, and listen to music. Also because of the fact that when I talk on the phone I pace around the house and look like a complete retard. Most of the time I'm more interested in what the others are doing, and then I join in. That all changes when I'm around friends though. I can sometimes be the loudest guy there, but hey it's my friends, I shouldn't have to worry. Now, don't get confused and think I'm some loud-mouth and try to be the life of the party, I'm still nothing like that. Just you'll be aware that I'm there, I'm not completely antisocial. I typically am the guy being funny or being asked to show off on Guitar Hero (yeah I've actually had shit like that happen. People come up and tell me to play so all of their friends can see my mad skills. And you know what, yeah I'm bragging. I'm gonna stop with the whole "I'm ok." thing. I'm actually really good. Most of the Guitar Hero/Rock Band games I'm nearing like top 500, top 300. It's what I do, I mean you don't see pro athletes pretending they suck. They're aware of their ability. Ok, getting outta hand, moving on.) I'll go quiet if you throw in a stranger, nothing against you, trust me, it's just I don't become social until I know you. It's nothing personal guys, I just don't go out and start conversations really. Isn't shyness the most awesome crap ever? And most of you are all "Why are you shy?". I don't fuckin' know, I just am, I don't start conversations easily with people I don't know. I guess mostly it all boils down to making a good first impression, I strive to please. Most of the time you'll have to approach me to talk, I won't do it. WAY too shy. If I come to you to talk, be honored, it doesn't happen a lot. And just because I don't start the conversation doesn't mean I don't like to talk. I love talking to people, and I wish people would do it more often. I love hearing about what is going on other people's lives. I don't care what it is, you can come to me to vent, rant, cry, yell, whatever. I aim to please, and I'm more than happy to help you with whatever your problems are. And another thing I've noticed. I don't ever really make eye contact when I talk. I don't know what that is all about. It's not shyness, because I won't do it when talking casually to a friend. It's weird, I haven't figured out how to stop it either. Don't think any illy of it, it's just something I do. And it's nothing towards you specifically, it goes the same for everyone. And I mean that sincerely, ask around, I don't go around socializing with people. I feel if you wanna be my friend you'll come talk. Which I know is a bit hypocritical since I don't go and do the same. It's just how I am, idk. It's something I KIND OF want to change because I know in some point in my life I'm going to have to be socialable, but until then I'll stick to how I am. It's gotten me this far already, and I have to say I've done pretty good in my opinion. Now don't get me wrong, I like meeting new people, it's just I'm not good at going and doing the whole "Hey, nice to meet ya" kind of thing. I've gotten a bit better at it though, I realize there are at times people that have personalities JUST like me, so that means I'll probably have to come to YOU to say hi. So I guess I'm already starting to change. I guess that works out for everyone else better, more chances for people to meet the amazing Josh, ok I'm done being egotistical lol.
A lot of people will tell you that you won't find a nicer guy than me, and they're telling the truth. No, I'm not conceited and think I'm perfect it's just I know I'll put my friends' lives in front of mine until I die, they mean that much to me. I don't care what I have to go through, if I'm making someone else happy, I feel that I'm fulfilling my purpose. I try to not go overboard though, I know that I shouldn't hurt myself to help someone else, but in most situations, I'd rather deal with the little bit of pain if I can make them feel better. My friends have always been there for me, so I see it as not neccessarily repaying the favor but treating them as well as they treat me. It is a bit of a disadvantage too, but I can't change something like that. I don't know why, but for the most part (everyone cracks under tension and stress) things that would normally be hell for people don't bother me. I'm the type of guy that goes "I always get the short end of the stick" while smiling in the same sentence. I know that life can suck sometimes, but I've also learned that throughout life that it will only feel bad if you LET it. And I've been practicing for 19 going on 20 years on perfecting that. A lot of that is on the surface though. All of the depression anxiety is still there, I just bury it and try not to notice it. Out of sight and out of mind work very well with me. And if I don't THINK it exists, I won't feel the side-effects of it. I've actually had people ask me how I do it, and I can only shrug. I have no clue how I developed it, but I just don't let things get to me (or as much as they should). Don't get me wrong, I have lost it emotionally and broke down, everyone has, but I try to avoid it at all costs. Love and relationships haven't ever seemed to work for me. I do my best to show someone I care (and trust me if I say I care, I CARE, I don't throw around words like that, they have a deep meaning behind them), but it never seems to go anywhere, and I end up with heartache. I'm very romantic at heart, but my shy nature makes it difficult to approach someone. I don't go around looking for flings, I look for people that I wouldn't mind spending every waking moment with. Why go for some crap relationship that will probably last a week, when you can find one that could last forever. I had been single my whole life and I have to tell ya, it sucked. Being a romantic kind of guy I want to have that feeling that I'm cared for (yes I know my friends and family care about me but there is a whole different level of care out there, and I feel like an outcast).
When it comes to family it's really just my mom and sister, and my friends (yes they are a part of my family to me). I'm happy with it just being my mom and sister. My mom is the greatest person I've ever met. She'll do anything to make sure I live a good life and has succeeded, she's my role model and hero, living proof that you can work through hard times and be ok. She's an amazing person.
I joke around, plain and simple. Humor is a part of me, and I love to laugh. A lot of my humor is sarcasm. So if I ever say anything that might be taken as mean, go home and cry to your mom, you big sissy...Nah I'm just kidding, don't worry, I didn't mean it, comon, don't cry, I'm sorry (unless you are just one of those people I don't like, then of course I mean it lol). I won't ever sit there and badmouth a friend, it's all fun and games. If you don't laugh, what's the point in living?
I'm not perfect, I don't claim to be (if you didn't get that from reading the stuff above, seriously, just go, you aren't smart enough to be on this page *imitates an annoucers voice* "Your IQ must be THIS high to read the profile"), nor will I ever try to. I'm well aware of my flaws too, so don't come and start hounding me about how I should change. If it's seriously an issue, I'll more than likely change how I go about that. I don't tell you how to go about your life, so I hope I can expect you to do the same to me. I have a brain and I can definetly put it to good use, thanks for your concern though =D.